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July 31, 2008
"I am waiting for you, Vizzini. You told me to go back to the beginning. So I have."
It's true - I read my horoscope. I subscribe to Daily Om. And I get the Cosmic Calendar every day. On the whole my attitude is these things are enjoyable to read, and I tend to ignore the stuff that I don't like and cling to the stuff I do.... ( read more)
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wow. thinking of you. you are incredibly strong.
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July 29, 2008
"It's best to just ride it out. Like an earthquake."
A notice to all my out-of-town pals who have been calling and texting incessantly since 11:43am PST: I am fine. Everyone I know is fine. Nothing crumbled or broke. And I still refuse to move back up to Canada, earthquakes or not. But thank you for your concern. In other... ( read more)
July 27, 2008
"There is no death. It is only a transition to a different sphere of consciousness."
If I could explain what my life is like these days, I'd have to say it's "bizarrely fabulous." And I use this term not because I don't believe I deserve the fabulous - I do. It's just that there's this strange mix of happenings where certain things should be getting... ( read more)
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And from SF, I giggle happily... :) |
That's cool of the movers to give you a little pep talk. It'll all be great, just you wait and see. Especially if you decide to hook up with me this weekend in L.A.! |
Thank you so much for coming to AZ! It was a spectacular night.
Whenever I move, I see it as stirring up sediment in a formerly polluted river. All the bad stuff had settled down and been covered in silt and the river is mostly healthy again. But then a bridge needs to be built or they do some massive dredging to help with the contaminents, and the pollution gets stirred up and yuck ensues, but it's all for the better. Moving is hard!
Also, I feel you on the not being rooted. I was able to buy a house when I was 24 years old. 2 months later, I was assaulted. For the last 5 years, I've moved to smaller and smaller places, staying only a year or so.
I know what you mean about holding yourself to an ideal. I do that, too. I haven't been able to revise it entirely, but it only bothers me when other things are bothering me.
I bet the mover was glad to help console you! Just like it makes you happy to help those of us through things you've also experienced. |
I feel your pain. I'm going to be 36 in three months and thought I was showing the world how together I was by quitting my amazing job and moving myself all the way to England. Yet six months later I'm completely broke and had to be bailed out of it by my folks. Here's hoping that by the time I turn 40 I will have turned my life around, be debt free and finally have the kind of life I thought I'd already have by now. Otherwise I think I may as well move back into my parent's basement and work retail again. |
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July 23, 2008
"I still can't believe it. Val's moving into a hotel suite. What kind of people live in a hotel?"
Apologies for the radio silence... it's been nutty. The Arizona reading was probably one of the most incredible experiences I've had yet, and a recap will be coming... but I'm moving tomorrow (yes, again) and need to get that over with before I can take time out to blog. So,... ( read more)
July 14, 2008
"Okay, guys. Road trip checklist. Car: Check. Okay. We're good."
I'm about to hit the road again. I can't wait. Maybe it's because I didn't learn how to drive until I was 25, but I still absolutely love being in a car. Yes, even in L.A. traffic. I think road trips are awesome and I don't get to do enough... ( read more)
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I have a schizophrenic iPod, as well. Mine runs the gamut from Louis Prima (nothing makes me crave Italian food ... or Italians, for that matter, than the soundtrack to Big Night) to The DiVinyls.
And Modern English's I'll Stop the World? Valley Girl, indeed. That's how I fell in love with Nicholas Cage. And still have a thang for him...yeah, I know, the Lisa Marie phase was just weird, but we're all entitled to our little psychoses. |
Of course I back you up. Also, you're helping to support someone overcoming addiction; it's like you're a humanitarian. |
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July 9, 2008
"I am somebody. I matter. People will be attracted to my positive energy and help me achieve my goals. I am right where I'm supposed to be and not dying for something to eat!"
Monday has inadvertently become Health Day for me. Used to be it would be Wednesday when I'd go see my acupuncturist, chiropractor, sometimes my energy healer, and then head off to yoga, but my travel schedule had me running all over the place and didn't make it easy for me... ( read more)
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It's hard to learn how to accept help (I'm still pretty bad at it) when, for your whole life, you've learned that being self-sufficient and strong enough to "do it on your own" is the way to be. I think the only thing to do is think, "would I mind if a friend needed me in this way?" and go forward on the answer to that question. |
That's a tough lesson to learn and one that I seem to need to learn over and over again. I've had my financial ups and downs and, like you, treated many a friend to meals, airport runs, loans, etc. But when it comes around to be MY turn? I hate it.
Still, I'm better at it now than I was 15 years ago, that's for sure. It's the asking for help that takes the most work for me. Or the admission of guilt that, yeah, I'm broker than snot.
I do agree, though, with your therapist. People love being with you so it's not really an issue. It helps to view it from the other side of the coin, too. |
Your therapist really does have her noodle screwed in right, doesn't she? Bless her, but I totally get where you are coming from. I hate being in debt to people but have no problem giving my last penny to someone to help them out... and the asking for help thing? I think I'll just put down a series of Yes, yep, absolutely's etc and nod like a dog for a bit. |
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July 7, 2008
"Oh, I wouldn't care if she was Mother bloody Teresa, darling! It doesn't matter for our purposes! What we need is a Princess with a press following and a designer dress on her back!"
Thanks to all of you who e-mailed, IMed, texted, commented and called about Pasha - I really do appreciate it. I'm doing better with this than I was... which just means I'll break down even harder when it's really time. But I'm dealing in the meantime. Your support is a... ( read more)
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Can't wait to have you. On the show, I mean. ;) I appreciate you taking time out of your busy schedule. |
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July 4, 2008
"We're researching her now to see if she has some kind of resurrection powers. Maybe she's a vampire cat with nine lives, or something!"
As I write this it's 8:30 on the eve of Independence Day, and I suppose I should be out partying at a BBQ or prepping to watch fireworks... but I can't. I can't bring myself to leave the house today. And the reason why is because shortly after returning home... ( read more)
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I know nothing I say will make it better. So I'll just send a shoulder and a hug. |
I just wanted to send my hugs through the web.
I've never been a cat person since my kitty ran away after a move when I was 9, but almost two years ago we spontaneously stopped for a "Free Kittens!" sign and got our daughter a kitten for her 5th birthday. We named her Gracie, but within two weeks it was apparent she was a boy, and Gracie just didn't seem like the thing to do then. We researched famous cat names until we settled on "Church," the cat in Pet Cemetery. We're a little offbeat, you know, ha! That cat has become the seventh member of our little family, and our fifth child. He's got such personality and spunk, and there are times we want to knock him out, but we love him, like family. We don't want to imagine our family without him. Reading this post really gave the way I feel about him words, and it made me ever so sad for what you must be going through. We'll be thinking of you and Pasha. |
I had to put my cat of 20 years down 2 years ago. It was necessary and time as my vet told me that she had nothing that would help my cat's suffering. It was a hard decision and I balled my heart out when it was done. Last September, I rescued a scrawny bedraggled cat off the street. She was so skinny, I thought her a kitten. I took her to the vet the same day to see if there were any medical problems. It turned out there were quite a few, mainly the result of being mauled by a larger animal.. The vet also told me that based on de4ntal wear, she estimated the cat's age at about 6 years. She was hardly a kitten. Now, after Cdn. $2000 of veterinary surgery, my "free" cat is happy and filled out. |
Oh, I hate this for you. Sending lots of gentle loving vibes to you and Pasha Miss Kitty Fantastico. |
I'm glad I got to meet her, and maintain that she is movie perfect (I held back from writing purrrfect). And I'm so sorry for you; she's been a fantastic kitty-friend. |
Oh, Carly, I'm terribly sorry. I love cats and know what it's like to have to say goodbye to them. My heart goes out to you and Pasha. |
I'm so sorry. That I am late with my condolences. That she had to go. Losing a pet is one of the hardest things. My heart goes out to you. |
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